Hope in Mourning

by:  Mary Jo Moxley, 2015 Summer Camp Staff

In his book, How to Read Literature Like A Professor, Thomas Foster suggests, “where there is water, it’s a good chance someone is being baptized into a new season/mindset or someone is drowning.”

As I walked away in the pouring rain, I looked back at the nursing home where my mother was spending her last days. The water literally poured around me, every drop a reminder.

Was I being baptized into deeper faith? Or, was I drowning?

Then I wrestled with the prospect of new life resulting from the loss of my mom.

How could I feel optimistic during this terrible time?

Why did I feel this way?

Then I realized it was God speaking new life into me. He was showing me what it meant to have authentic faith, and look to eternity rather than our temporary position.

Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace. {Romans 8:5-6}

When I gave my life to Christ, I gave Him everything. I gave him my hopes, my dreams, the love in my life, my career, relationships, and my family. My life is no longer my own, it belongs to Him.

When my mother gave her life to the Lord, she did the same thing.

In her late twenties, my mom was diagnosed with a terminal disease that would take her mobility, independence, and eventually her life. Because He is so good, he took her and this disease.

I’m reminded when she loses her life, she is receiving something much greater – an eternity with Jesus Christ.

God is the same today, tomorrow, and forever. {Revelation 22:13}

There is hope that cannot be compared to anything this world has ever known in Christ, because in Him there is hope that can never be taken. We lose nothing, and that is amazing grace.

For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. {Philippians 1:21}

God set me free in the mourning.

Christ’s sacrifice on the cross has allowed me to rest in His promises. He has given me unremarkable peace and hope for what’s to come. I can cry and feel sad, but also experience a deeper joy by resting in the God of my salvation.

In the rain and through my tears, I am baptized into a deeper faith and a new life.

Never will I drown again.

Friends, hope is here and available to you. Your circumstances do not define you; when you lay your life at the foot of the cross, leave it there. Allow the Lord to be your everything. Whenever you let go of what is temporary and what this world offers, you can find peace with who you are in the Lord. When storms come, they do not break you, because you belong to the unbreakable God.

About the Author:  Mary Jo Moxley is an English, with a concentration in Literature, student at Georgia Southwestern State University. She has served on Crossroads summer staff for the past three summers after being a camper for five years prior. She loves coffee shops, singing, makeup and her cat Moses. She hopes to one day be in the audience of SNL in New York City, and her twitter//instagram handle is mj_01